Always & Forever Ministry

KIDNEY FAILURE

What?!?  My kidneys are failing?  But I just had my son.  Nooo! What?  NO!  Really, God? Really?... 

Ok, it is what it is.  It’ll be like going to work.  I don’t always want to go but I have to…

I feel angry, mad, crazy rage because I feel like crap.  And I’m so tired. I’m always tired.  I’ve lost so much weight.  I’ve been in the hospital five times over an eleven month period.    I need to make arrangement for Tommy and Bruce because I feel like I’m dying and I welcome it.  I’m so very tired but if I die, my baby will have no memories of me.  I feel so numb—all cried out...

BUT GOD

Ok God, I trust You.  Trusting Your decisions whether I understand them or not has left me in a tranquil state—my soul assured of its salvation through Christ and so fearing nothing from You and being content with my earthly lot of whatever sort that is—PEACE…

TRANSPLANT

I feel sadness because while my family and I are rejoicing in one room of the hospital another family is grieving the loss of their loved one. Their gift to me will change my life. My joy is an overwhelming confused joy, if that makes any sense…

 FUTURE

My Fathers thoughts and plans for me are not yet fulfilled.  It is not finished...

Whom have I in heaven but You?  And I have no delight or desire on earth besides You.  My flesh and my heart may fail but You are the Rock and Firm Strength of my heart and my Portion forever.